Monthly Archives: October 2010

Month: October 2010 motherhood means goodbyes

The goodbye’s of motherhood.  I’ll tell you, I never thought about this end of the deal as the children were coming along and our family increased in size every other year.  I didn’t even think about it when the children would go on occasional outings or when they headed off to camp every once in a great while.  It just didn’t occur to me.  I don’t know why — but it didn’t.  O, sure, I did nod my head in total ignorance agreement when women would give me knowing smiles and advice that these days would go so fast.   I would agree with them — as. if. I. understood. But, I’m telling you, I know now — that I really had no idea what lay ahead.  I’m pretty sure I thought we’d always be “us”  and things would just go along.  I’d be in the kitchen cooking, baking and cleaning continue reading

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Month: October 2010 Internet Addiction

Just like an extra hot grandé mocha… the addiction starts a sip at a time.  And you don’t even know it.  You don’t even realize the cost — just like that steaming cup of coffee — it’s so smooth, so gradual – so available, so everywhere, so chíc.  An isolated instance — not a big deal; not a great expense — not initially. Sometimes when I hear the rumble of the caffé steamer I think of the early days of the internet connection tone — choooooooooooo, clang, clang, clang, clang – chooooooooooooooooo, click: Welcome, You’ve Got Mail! Life’s going on – you think maybe everyone out there has a friend and you wish you had one, too.  Everyone out there is doing something great and you wish you were, too.  Everyone out there has people cheering them on, telling them the latest news, showing them the latest trends — everyone continue reading

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Month: October 2010 Stones

Significant to me are the milestones in my life that were either turning points or celebrations or decisions.  Some of the turning points were simply changes in direction of thought or action; simple things like: from this day forward, I will________.   I have marked many of the “I will’s” in my Bible or on stones in our garden or in journals I’ve kept over the years.  Sometimes I didn’t realize that specific decisions would have such strong or lasting implications—nor, did I realize that God would use decisions as springboards for others.  But I do now.  Only looking back do I see how some of the actions or decisions were used; decisions that were really insignificant at the time were used as the basis for some great changes or great work. I recall the day I decided to always —everyday— without fail: make my bed the very first thing in continue reading

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Month: October 2010 encouragement for prayer

As I was reading my Bible, I began to pray specifically for one of my boys.  This often happens as I am reading along and am inspired by the text to stop and pray or to make personal application to a particular situation or for a particular individual or family. Well, the other day as I was reading and praying, I was greatly comforted by God’s gracious love toward us and how, though occasionally quite painful or difficult, the Lord works all things for our good and His glory.   Each trial or difficulty seems (perhaps not till long after the fact) to be specifically arranged and ordered that maximum benefit and growth can be realized — and a deepening life message is continually written. I often pray Colossians 1.11 for my husband and children, praying: “[O Lord, that they might be]  Strengthened with all might, according to [Your] his glorious continue reading

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Month: October 2010 Introducing

My blog journal…  the journey to bake the perfect cake. I’ve been working on this other blog off and on — more off than on, obviously,  for quite some time.  My husband had secured the biz-name for me a couple of years ago.  And then the site — but I couldn’t figure out how to make the site work and I couldn’t figure out what to share and what not to share and I hadn’t taken enough photos along the way and my phone camera isn’t the greatest and on and on. I originally thought the site would be a ‘wedding cake‘ site… but then I kept trying different types of cake recipes and so I decided that I would blog about the different ones I had tried.  But, alas, I didn’t write things down along the way and have forgotten pertinent things about different recipes I’d tried from The continue reading

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Month: October 2010 the choice valley

I have Lynda Randle’s beautiful little book, God on the Mountain, which has been to me a book of great comfort..  Though its size is quite small and the pages sparsely filled — replete with great inspiration and beauty.  Wouldn’t you like that to be said of your life?  Though the life might have seemed quite small – maybe even insignificant to many, it was fa life filled with great inspiration and beauty. I’d like to share a portion of one of the first paragraphs from God on the Mountain:  “Webster’s Dictionary defines a valley as “a long depression between ranges of hills or mountains.” That’s what much of the early portion of this year seemed to me to be: a long depression between ranges of hills.  Or mountains.    And I knew it.  I knew –unmistakeably– that I was in a choice valley — though some days it truly seemed continue reading

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Month: October 2010 internet junkie

There have been times when I imagined that one day I’d be sitting in a circle waiting for my turn to introduce myself and then when the person beside me finished their introduction and small talk, they’d glance at me, signaling my turn, and then I’d say:  I don’t know why I’m here or how I got to this point, but here I am.   So, hello, I’m pamela and I’m an internet junkie. I used to say (and laugh about it) that one day there’s going to be a branch of medicine dedicated to the emotional problems, effects and disorders associated with computer abuse use and result of internet addiction.  I used to think it was isolation that would be a great problem — but now, that’s not what I think to be the great problem.  Now I think it’s distraction.  Distraction from what’s really going on.  Distraction from what’s continue reading

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Month: October 2010 The Trash Bin…

Every Thursday morning, like clockwork, our trash-man rolls down the lane to gather this week’s investment in a local landfill from our trash bin. Every two months a billing for this service shows up in our mailbox. Each week, as I shop for our groceries, I realize there are going to be additional costs to these groceries beyond the initial purchase price.  I’m going to have to pay to drive them home, pay to store them in the fridge, pay to store them in jars or whatever, pay to cook them, pay to wash the pots and pans, pay to wash the dishes on which the food is served, pay to store the leftovers, pay to reheat them, pay to rewash the pots, pay to rewash the dishes, pay to throw away the original packaging… so that the guy will have something to collect in the trash bin. We have continue reading

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