Standing in the Son

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Though I use it most every day, it’s only every now and then that I take note of the verse imprinted on the cover of the notebook I’m currently using: “May the Lord bless you and keep you, and give you peace.”  from Numbers 6.24-26

I have dozens of such books since I began note-taking & journaling many years ago.  I’ve made a concerted effort to revisit the books from time to time — not only to see where I’ve been compared to where I am today, but to see what the Lord was showing me in Scripture, sermons, notes, plans, etc., etc., and take note now of how the Lord answered those questions, situations, needs, prayers — to see what became of what I thought was important enough to record… notes I wrote, articles I clipped, ideas I gathered and plans I made.

As I’ve been writing notes, gathering ideas and making plans lately, I see I’ve been hurried and unsettled; the future seems hard and the way seems dark sometimes.  And I have to wonder: where’s the Lord in all these thoughts?  Knowing that He is the God of all comfort, the God of all peace, the God who heals, supplies, redeems, I have to admit, He’s not at the center (or the author) of those doubtful thoughts—He’s not at the center (or the author) of dark thoughts.

So, then, I have to deduce that those thoughts are not of Him and, in faith, I need to replace them with Truth—what does God say? —where is God in all this?  Instantly I think of Philippians 4.19: “But my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”

When I read through old journals and notebooks, the common thread that I see in all the books is the thread of faith in Jesus — His truth, presence, provision and protection.  It’s been Jesus. All day every day.  That’s what I wanted then.  That’s what I want now.  Actually, now more than ever.  I want to be seeing Him and I want Him to be seen in me.

When I see the Stong’s 2424 number for Jesus, I think: Yes, that’s what I want: the will, the blessing, the keeping, the presence, the joy, the leading, the peace and the love of Jesus, 24/24: all day-all day… every day-every day.

I want to be found standing in the Son.

gleaning

teacuppamelaEach Tuesday morning I make a short trip north in our little town to a church where I join others in gleaning what the Lord’s provided.  It dawns on me that each week that’s not all He’s provided and the purpose for me being there isn’t simply to glean.  But I miss that truth sometimes in my gleaning hustle and bustle.

Gleaning’s a lot like other stuff that has to do with food.  You know what I mean, gleaning?  It’s where there are boxes and boxes of breads and fruits and vegetables that have been culled from, primarily, the different markets’ produce departments.  It’s what’s been damaged in some manner or what’s going south — that’s my term for fruits and vegetables that are just about to be compost material.  Sort of like orange juice that’s sat out all night on the counter and you take a sip and realize it’s somewhere between a super-fizz drink and something citrus-awful.  That’s how some of the fruits are.  And the vegetables tend to be on the verge of slime.  But you don’t know that — at first.  And you don’t know that unless or until you’ve taken more than you really need and a couple of days later you have a puddle of green juice oozing out the bottom of a box on your porch or counter.  A few times of this happening, and you learn lessons, hopefully, you never forget.

And you discover composting.

Well, each week I see pretty much the same crowd  and, for the most part, we don’t chit-chat — we just do what we came there to do: get whatever we can as quick as we can.  Seriously.  But every now and then, the Lord shows me a different purpose for my being there on that particular day.  Sometimes it’s to point a person to Christ—seeing that they’re searching for Him, but in all the wrong ways and places.   Sometimes it’s to be a listening ear, a shoulder to weep on, a hand to lend.  It’s an opportunity to listen, just listen, to a person going through an agonizing trial.   There’ve been a number of encounters with men and women whose stories from week to week include losses, heartache, sickness, and death.  So, early on, I came to see, as I’ve seen in similar situations, that gleaning isn’t just gleaning bread and produce.   It’s taking in people’s experiences and, in return, giving Bread and praying for its produce.

We used to run a foodbank from our garage for a number of years.  Day after day we’d make the trek to the grocery store from which we brought foods from the deli, breads and dairy, and produce —- loads of produce.  Every morning, day after day, we — my husband, children and I — would sort, clean up and set out the glean for the day and people could come and freely shop for whatever they needed/wanted.  All the while, that very distinct “gleaning smell” would waft through the air.  If you’ve experienced this smell, you know you never forget it.

Problem with “free” is that there’s a tendency to hoard.  We all do it… we see “free” and we’re compelled to grab.  Sort of like church “pot-luck” food tables.   Or free materials at the homeschool events.  Or free stuff offered at yard-sales.  Invariably, free stuff, taken indiscriminately, tends to sit and spoil.  Stuff we thought we’d use and didn’t suddenly becomes a great burden that needs to be disposed of — it’s true with food as much as it is with books and other stuff.

So… the trick is to learn to glean wisely: to be careful to get what you need and use what you get for the benefit of everyone around you.

more grace

I’mteacuppamela thankful to have woken early this morning… long before my alarm was to ring (and more thankful now, that I didn’t disregard the purpose and attempt to go back to sleep).  I’ve come to see that, in these sorts of times, the Lord has work to do in me — though, sadly, I often don’t see it or acknowledge it at the time.   In such times, I know it’s sort of a wrestling match when I awake, instantly aware of the presence of the Lord — and then, almost simultaneously, I’m conflicted and reason (or attempt to negotiate with the Lord) that I’ve had less sleep than I planned on.  You know… He gives His beloved sleep.  Ah… you’ve tried that, too?

He Giveth More Grace
by Annie J. Flint

    He giveth more grace as our burdens grow greater,
    He sendeth more strength as our labors increase;
    To added afflictions He addeth His mercy,
    To multiplied trials He multiplies peace.

    When we have exhausted our store of endurance,
    When our strength has failed ere the day is half done,
    When we reach the end of our hoarded resources
    Our Father’s full giving is only begun.

    Fear not that thy need shall exceed His provision,
    Our God ever yearns His resources to share;
    Lean hard on the arm everlasting, availing;
    The Father both thee and thy load will upbear.

    His love has no limits, His grace has no measure,
    His power no boundary known unto men;
    For out of His infinite riches in Jesus
    He giveth, and giveth, and giveth again.

You’re going to need this

A mother hands a child a coat as he prepares to head out the door.  You’re going to need this, she says, it’s cold outside.  Another time, she hands the child an umbrella.  You’re going to need this, she says, it’s raining out and you’ll get wet if you don’t open it as you step off the porch.

The child might dutifully accept the coat or the umbrella; he might also be trusting  her judgment; in addition, he might be reflecting and acting on past experience.

Whatever the case — obedience or experience — in the coat or umbrella scenarios above, the external conditions are present and so it’s really quite simple to accept the coat for the present cold or to accept the umbrella for the present rain as these two situations can be either presently felt or presently seen.

Sometimes we don’t understand why we’re being handed something.

We receive unanticipated work and, thus, more income than we would normally have.  Accustomed to less, we might wonder, Why we have so much more?  We delight in our “windfall” and dream of the different things we want to get.  And then… an appliance breaks or a vehicle needs a new transmission or a tooth cracks and needs a root canal and crown. We feel surprised that we have just the right amount of money needed to cover the repairs!  We then remember we were handed something we were going to need.

Other times, we’re handed an experience or many experiences and we might ask or cry or even complain, Why is this happening?

The first days of running or dieting or learning a new skill sometimes seem so arduous — so impossible!  Most of us give up or what to quit in the face of such difficulties.  Then, someone comes along — say an experienced runner — and he says, don’t quit; keep going… you’re going to need this for the steeper parts of the road.

Sometimes we’re handed illness or tragedy or sorrow and we think, O, can’t do this, I cannot handle this — I just can’t do this — this is too hard for me.  We want to turn away from the problem — we want to run from it because looking at what we think we’re able to do, we can’t see our way through.  And then, by the grace of God, we see a little beyond what we see.

God is our refuge and strength,
a very present help in trouble.
Psalm 46.1

 

As we continue to walk with the Lord, as we continue to trust in His Word, we grow… we grow in grace, we grow in wisdom and strength and we grow in trust that He *is* with us — He *is* for us and He really does do all things well.  Not that He will answer or provide or guide in the very same manner He has in the past, but simply: He will answer.

Each situation we face, each heartache that comes, each sorrow that washes over us, each disappointment, each failure, each loss — each thing can be a blessed experience that reminds us of God’s dealings with us in the past — as if He handed us something and said, You’re going to need this.  We may not understand why at the time, but down the road a bit, we’ll see…

We’re so tempted to measure a situation by what we can see — not by what God’s got planned or by what He’s doing.  He is our refuge — we can trust in Him.  He is our strength — we can lean on Him.  He is our very present help in trouble — we can accept what He hands us.  Even when — especially when — we can’t see the storm ahead, we can take the coat of His salvation and the umbrella of His Holy Spirit that He hands us, saying, You’re going to need this.

what the devil intends for evil, God uses for good…

Truly, the devil does only seek destruction.
God is only good. All the time.

The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy:
I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.
John 10:10

O will sing of the mercies of the LORD forever… He has once again – in a remarkable, amazing, loving and merciful way – that He alone is Lord and He alone (Romans 8.28-29) works all things together for good to them that love Him and are the called according to His purpose. (29) For whom He did foreknow, He also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of His Son.

Though sometimes painful and seemingly hopeless, things the LORD allows us to experience are for our good and His great Glory. We do praise Him and Him alone for the great love wherewith He has loved us and for His watchcare over our little lamb. We can only take that sweet cup of salvation and say: Thank You.

When a prodigal returns, walking back down the lane, sees the lights of Home and is welcomed into the arms of her father & mother, sisters & brothers, there is much joy and rejoicing — the kind known only following much travail, heartache, pain and sorrow. Sorrow endures for a night, but truly, truly, Joy does come in the morning!  Praise only the Lord.

more later.

Prayer

I have written about this reMARKable couple some time ago…  Andrew & Grace have faced an extremely arduous ordeal with  Andrew having cancer  in the last year.  Please, please remember him in prayer – that God would comfort him, ease his pain and, if it would be His will to heal him, pray God’s swift and merciful healing would be done in and through Andrew.

As you read the testimony of their lives in the blog entries of Grace’s Journal, you will be blessed by the faith and trust in the Lord and His sovereign grace.  They’re such a young couple… facing things in their young life – young marriage – young family – that most people never face in a lifetime.   When Andrew learned he had cancer in his mouth… he and Grace embarked on what has proven to be a very, very painful and difficult journey.

The story begins with January ’07  journal entries.  The entries chronicle the highs and lows of the journey and throughout, you will see the tracing of the Hand of the Lord and His provision, His mercy and love.   And their deep abiding love for Him and one another.

Please join the many who are in prayer for them and also for their families;  thank you.    I suppose much prayer is needed on behalf of so many.  We have friends here locally who are very close to Andrew and Grace and so this is also a very heavy time for them as they watch and wait for updates.

prayers for conception

Week after week we receive them… prayer requests and tearful letters from sisters and brothers in the Lord who are seeking prayer for conception and pregnancy. Most of the time the requests are from women who’ve never borne children and long for a baby — long to be a mother and have a family to raise and care for. Other times the requests are from women who’ve borne a child or children and have not been blessed with more. Some have PCOS, some have other issues that prevent conception or length of pregnancy and still others request prayer for change of heart and reversal of vasectomies or tubal ligations. Whatever the case, there are so many heartaches over the barren womb.

I post the requests as I receive them in the Guestbook entries or personal letters. I often ask sisters & brothers to remember these aching hearts before the Lord… and that, if it would be His will, HE will open their wombs and give them conception. For them and for His glory.