I thought I’d better just log-in, write something, share a few thoughts or blog an entry in order to dispel any thoughts that I dropped off the face of the earth. Or am still coughing. Or am still sick. Okay, I’m not sick… but am still coughing.
It’s December 18th and all through the house every creature is stirring — even a mouse! Little traps are all set with peanut butter and bacon — in hopes that the little creature would soon be achin’ and what to my wandering eye should appear, but more snow, yes, more snow is here! I went to the window to see the great sight and low and behold more snow fell in the night and the whole world looks to be a beautiful, pure white!
You have to know that I just sat down to type, forgot the story and so cannot continue the rhyme.
So, it’s December 18th… it sure doesn’t look like there’s a big celebration going on — or even planned… but it’s here, it really is. The pantry is filled with ingredients that, when assembled, will bring great delight… and will conjur up memories of Christmas past and set the tone for the days ahead. Each recipe I prepare and each “tradition” I don’t forget to keep seems to say to my family: I love you, I love you, still.
I’m trying to be renewed daily in the Spirit of my mind and keep the “what would Jesus do?” thoughts in the forefront of my singing and plans and daydreams and concerns. I think on each child; I pray for specific concerns particular to each one. My mind harkens back to days when they were small… such different days than these… in those days I would fall into bed, so exhausted from the work of the day and would sleep soundly — and then wakening to the sounds of a baby’s cry or the pitter-patter of little feet. In those days I could hold them in my arms and cover them with little blankets — now I can only hold them in my heart and cover them in prayer.
I miss those days and find myself thinking: hmmmmmmmm, nothing and everything prepared me for these days. The LORD is faithful. I’m thankful He never tells me what’s ahead and yet, all the while, He’s preparing my steps and my heart to accept each new dawn — strengthening my faith day by day.
I stand at the sink and ponder these days, ponder those days and think: If I could go back to those days — would I? For I wouldn’t want to miss these days in order to relive those. I attempt to recall what I was doing on any given December 18th of the last 30 years… and I smile at the thought of the early days and decide to not spend much time there — each year seemed to add a chair at the table — and even though now each year seems to take away a chair from the table, I decide to embrace these days – these good old days.
It’s time to go bake a memory.