Lots of women do this. Every day they do this. For years I wrote every day. But then a reality check came. And the reality was this: I was so consumed with doing all I was doing that I forgot/neglected what I was supposed to be doing.

I think lots of early sites, early website designers/builders and then bloggers fell into this same thing: out of control distraction! I’ve had the honor and privilege of talking with some of them over the years. One such blogger, Keri Lamar, who faced a similar ‘day of reckoning, is the author of Present:  How one woman pulled the plug on distraction to connect with real life. It’s worthwhile reading (along with the Present Journal).

In the 90’s, internet was new and thrilling —a time of information explosion— bulletin boards, seemingly unlimited content, email, internet chatrooms/groups/platforms were big. Really big. And SO easy! The allure was amazing, captivating and intoxicating.  And captivated we were — sometimes for hours on end. Days evaporated.  I’ve written from time to time about this early {and ongoing} distraction and time drain (Here and many other posts on internet addiction).

Once I got hooked on internet lists/groups, I began to gather material and content to begin building a website for women, homemakers/home educators after the manner of Titus2. The learning curve was steep and sometimes exasperating as I worked at learning html coding, creating site content and images. It was helpful and instructive to receive supportive email (and occasional naysayer mails, too).  I loved what I was doing and the encouragement others were gleaning. Problem was, I didn’t notice what I wasn’t doing.  My distraction was encroaching on my calling as a wife and mother/homemaker and years of yoyo-ing in an attempt to find balance ensued.

Fast forward to today. The last ten plus years have given much perspective. Through valleys of depression, extreme lack of confidence, lack of purpose, hope and worth, I’ve been learning more and more about the love and mercy of God. The Lord is only good. The Lord is only faithful. All the time.  No matter where we’ve been, what we’ve done (or haven’t!) God is good and has good things for us — working all things together for His glory and our good.

It is of the Lord‘s mercies that we are not consumed,
because His compassions fail not.
They are new every morning: great is Thy faithfulness.
Lamentations 3.22-23

As I prepared to write this post, I felt that nagging feeling that I had no business doing this. But I desire to carry on using/sharing the gifts God’s given me, what God’s done for me, what God’s done in and through me. Prior to the internet and all that’s transpired, I was writing — from newsletters, guides and booklets to Bible studies and various retreat talks and programs.
And so now… I’d like to {again} more regularly share some experiences and observations here.
I’ll be re-blogging as He leads me.  ♥ —ps

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