Let’s Pretend… Posted on March 2, 2011March 2, 2011 By pamela Let’s Pretend is a children’s game. And children are good at playing it. Adults like to play this game, too — only it’s not always for entertainment or proper development. Nearly thirty years ago my husband encouraged me to talk to someone about CSA — or, my story. It was… Read more
No more secrets Posted on March 1, 2011March 1, 2011 By pamela It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. I so longed for freedom – freedom from shame, freedom from fear, freedom from having to do things for him in that way. I so wanted to be free from all that — I wanted it to all go away. … Read more
It’s not our little secret. Posted on February 28, 2011February 28, 2011 By pamela When I was eleven years old I was a young eleven. Certainly by today’s standards, I was a very young eleven. I was a compliant eleven — just the kind of girl who wanted to please everyone. I was just the kind of girl who wanted everything to work… Read more
Why Tell? Posted on February 26, 2011 By pamela That’s a question I asked myself for a long time. After I told my mother about my father sexuallyabusing me, it would be a long time before I would talk about it again. I didn’t say, it would be a long time before I thought about it again — just… Read more
CSA = Tell Someone Posted on February 21, 2011 By pamela It’s a tough topic – a tough thing to deal with, a tough thing to talk about. And that’s why it isn’t. talked. about. It’s also not talked about because of fear — a deep seated fear of reprisal. It is deep and it is real. I don’t talk about… Read more
retracing pages of days gone by Posted on January 31, 2011 By pamela Maybe you do this from time to time: see a photo of yourself and wonder how could that have been you? Or read something you’ve written and say: I recognize the writing… but how could I have forgotten that!?! Recently, while putting away fresh laundry, I stopped and looked up… Read more
Internet Addiction Posted on October 28, 2010 By pamela Just like an extra hot grandé mocha… the addiction starts a sip at a time. And you don’t even know it. You don’t even realize the cost — just like that steaming cup of coffee — it’s so smooth, so gradual – so available, so everywhere, so chíc. An isolated… Read more
internet junkie Posted on October 17, 2010October 28, 2010 By pamela There have been times when I imagined that one day I’d be sitting in a circle waiting for my turn to introduce myself and then when the person beside me finished their introduction and small talk, they’d glance at me, signaling my turn, and then I’d say: I don’t know… Read more
The Trash Bin… Posted on October 14, 2010 By pamela Every Thursday morning, like clockwork, our trash-man rolls down the lane to gather this week’s investment in a local landfill from our trash bin. Every two months a billing for this service shows up in our mailbox. Each week, as I shop for our groceries, I realize there are going… Read more
Timothy’s Miracle Posted on August 25, 2010January 21, 2014 By pamela I have written up the story of our son Timothy’s miracle and would like to share it with you. We continue to thank and praise the LORD for this marvelous gift. You can read the story here on our website. And as an update: I’ll begin writing this blog again… Read more