A special birthday Posted on March 14, 2011March 15, 2011 By pamela When Timothy was born, there was a brief hush over the delivery room — enough time for me to realize there must be a problem. Fearing the worst, I asked my husband if the baby had died. No, he said, he’s going to be fine. As Timothy was born, the… Read more
Then help me learn… Posted on March 11, 2011March 11, 2011 By pamela So many times — so many times over the years I’ve asked the Lord to help me learn… Lord, help me learn from this expensive lesson. Lord, I know the situation I’m in is from You… help me learn. Lord, if You have handed me this experience… then help me… Read more
So, why does stuff happen? Posted on March 5, 2011March 5, 2011 By pamela Do you find yourself asking the “why did that happen?” question? Why in the world did that happen? Or, why did this happen to me? Or, how could this have happened? We all ask some such question from time to time. Even when we don’t mean to bring up our… Read more
A Co-Incident Posted on March 3, 2011March 3, 2011 By pamela It just dawned on me that there are a bunch of co-incidents going on right now. But it’s not surprising to me when I’m dealing with something and then I notice several other similar something’s come up around the same time. You probably notice this is true in your life…… Read more
Let’s Pretend… Posted on March 2, 2011March 2, 2011 By pamela Let’s Pretend is a children’s game. And children are good at playing it. Adults like to play this game, too — only it’s not always for entertainment or proper development. Nearly thirty years ago my husband encouraged me to talk to someone about CSA — or, my story. It was… Read more
No more secrets Posted on March 1, 2011March 1, 2011 By pamela It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. I so longed for freedom – freedom from shame, freedom from fear, freedom from having to do things for him in that way. I so wanted to be free from all that — I wanted it to all go away. … Read more
It’s not our little secret. Posted on February 28, 2011February 28, 2011 By pamela When I was eleven years old I was a young eleven. Certainly by today’s standards, I was a very young eleven. I was a compliant eleven — just the kind of girl who wanted to please everyone. I was just the kind of girl who wanted everything to work… Read more
Why Tell? Posted on February 26, 2011 By pamela That’s a question I asked myself for a long time. After I told my mother about my father sexuallyabusing me, it would be a long time before I would talk about it again. I didn’t say, it would be a long time before I thought about it again — just… Read more
CSA = Tell Someone Posted on February 21, 2011 By pamela It’s a tough topic – a tough thing to deal with, a tough thing to talk about. And that’s why it isn’t. talked. about. It’s also not talked about because of fear — a deep seated fear of reprisal. It is deep and it is real. I don’t talk about… Read more
retracing pages of days gone by Posted on January 31, 2011 By pamela Maybe you do this from time to time: see a photo of yourself and wonder how could that have been you? Or read something you’ve written and say: I recognize the writing… but how could I have forgotten that!?! Recently, while putting away fresh laundry, I stopped and looked up… Read more